what can i say that can possible beat last week? it's kind of hard... seeing everyone was so great. i couldn't really imagine how great it was going to feel... and then... we went back to work. i think it was inspiring. i felt so much love and energy... i just wanted to go baptize everyone! still working on that one... will let you know how it goes. so far... there's still about 99% of thailand that doesn't know about jesus christ... i've got my work cut out for me. (but it's pretty awesome that it isn't really my work. and i've got about 200 other people here that are doing the same exact thing)
we were supposed to have a baptism yesterday... didn't quite work out. not because of worthiness or lack of a testimony. but... he doesn't have a visa. or the correct kind of visa. at this point. so... no baptism. kinda a bummer. but he should get it in february! (right when i leave..........)
it was an interesting week this week. we did a lot of contacting. some days... were more effective than others. one day we got six numbers. the next day... zero. it just reconfirms to me the idea that this isn't up to me.
i felt pretty cruddy on saturday. in fact... i must have looked even worse than i felt, because i had everyone telling me to go home. ouch. i went to bed at 7:00. there once was a time that i thought that 10:30 was early... nothing is the same when you are a missionary. but it was the best night's sleep i've ever had. we woke up the next morning. still needed a new investigator to get balanced key indicators for the week. we were almost late to church (in which we were speaking - again!). i just didn't feel stressed. weird. maybe i was too sick to feel stress. got up. gave my talk. sounded super stuffy. finished. only had one investigator. still not stressed. turns out... a member brought her friend to church today. i don't know how heavenly father does it. but i am firmly convinced that we do all we can... and he knows our goals. we set them, and if we are obedient - he helps us to reach them. i'm even more convinced that he doesn't let US do the finding. he wants us to know that they are HIS miracles. not mine.
i'm grateful.
sorry this is so short. i feel like this week flew by... and i don't know where most of it went.
i have quotes like: "we're going to sing I love to see the temple in a whisper-monster-voice" and the question asked by a 3 year old during a special musical number "dad, why are we not singing?"
i also know that i have added primary pianist to my qualifications in any future ward. good thing the children don't really listen. i could (and did) stop playing... and i don't think they even noticed.
we talk a lot about our "vision" here in the mission. we want a temple here in thailand. we want it SO BAD!!!! but this last week, i know that i am gaining a stronger vision of who i am and the person that i want to be. and i am so glad that heavenly father helps us to gain that vision. he helps us to see who we are, who we can become, and that he helps us to get there. i know that sometimes it seems a lot more like him dragging a stubborn child... but i am so grateful for his patience and loving-kindness and long-suffering for stubborn children like me. (i recently fell in love with those words in the scriptures)
i also fell in love with john 5.
well. that's all i got for this week!
i love you all!
:)
love love love
sister ellis
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